Bringing The Past With Me

My favorite quote, 'Time Flies'. I know, I know, I said it like a zillion times, but I mean... Seriously time flies... With the speed of light (okay, exaggerate much). Anyway, I am now alone in my parents' bedroom, and it gives me time to just sit and think. It feels as if I just got into Singapore, but actually I've stayed there for 6 months. Again, when I looked at my old friends, they don't seem to change, but they are now officially in second year of Senior High School. Man! And to reckon that we graduated together. Same goes with my little brother, before I left he just finished primary, and now he's in his second year of Junior High School, he is now even taller than me by 5-7 centimeters (I haven't grown even 1 mm!).

"Everyone has moved on", I thought to myself. Someone even said that, in the future, I won't be seeing any of my friends anymore, he also said something about having different life that will later become an invisible barrier between us. In one point we couldn't find any topic that will relate these two lifestyles. I'll slowly lose contacts, and then... All of them suddenly are just mere acquaintances. I denied it, but... To think of it more deeply, "Maybe it's true". Yes, each of us will naturally deny it, but who knows? This kind of 'Moving-on-and-forgetting-the-past' happens a lot. It's sad. Just sad. :(

I logged into my facebook account, then I accidentally clicked on photos of me. I decided that maybe I'll flip through my photos, starting from... The oldest. Then there was this photo of me and my classmates during yearbook photo sessions, there are lot of silly photos. Then I kept on flipping through the photos. I chuckled a few times seeing those photos. Then I came to this photo of me and my friends in Puncak. Walking on park, hiking up to the mountain, went to this fish pond, washing dishes, cooking frozen food, playing cards, and so on. My first intention on having a quick look on my old photos failed, I ended up reading all the comments on each photo. Then, I saw these photos, it was the sacred 4th of October, when me and my two other friends celebrated our last birthday in Indonesia in a restaurant which we destroyed later :D. I remembered how my other friends went through troubles to give us surprise, yeah the place was dirty, and we cleaned it up together :)) In the end I feel... :( and :) I missed those happy moments so much, when everyone had smiles on their faces, there were no worries, it was just... Indescribable.

"I'd be stupid if I forget about my past. If I forget about everyone in it", I thought. It's okay to move on, in fact we have to move on. But that doesn't mean we have to let go of everything. What happened in the past is what made you survive. It's always important to take a piece of our past and bring it along. So c'mon, keep in touch with those who you love! :)

The past makes a person who he is now - anonymous

And Now...
Here I am, frustrated. I didn't meet some people I'd like to meet, I haven't gone somewhere I planned to go before, I haven't gone shopping with my mom or friends, I haven't tasted some delicacies, in short... this holiday is just not long enough !! It's okay though, time will bring me to the next holiday in no time :)) See you again.

30 Hours Famine Camp

30 Hours Famine Camp
4- 5 June 2010

WO HOO :))

Last Friday, me and my friends participated in a camp. This wasn't an ordinary camp, during the camp we had to fast, meaning we couldn't eat any solid food within 30 hours. Drinks were okay though. I had to admit that this was the first camp I've ever attended my whole life. So I was kind of excited.

There were about more or less 1,200 participants.
There were 8 countries:
Cambodia, China, Ethiopia, Lesotho, Sri Lanka, Myanmar, Thailand and Mongolia

Then all of us were spread into those 8 countries, then in each country we were divided into small groups. During the grouping, I felt so ALONE since I knew no one in both my small group and country. Some of my friends (Regina and Sherine) tried to make things better and introduced me to people who they know (They knew that I had been desperately searching for people who were in the same country as me - Thanks guys! :*). Eventually I also knew that, there was one of my senior who was in the same small group as me. Yipee! I was freed from the fear of being alone :))

So we did this activity called, 'A Day in The Life'. The goal of this activity was so all the participants could experience the life of those people in need. The small group I mentioned earlier was actually a family too. My family's name was Naidu. At first, we were all shy since we didn't know each other. After a few minute of introduction, my facilitator, Fu Hua briefed us for this activity. There were 4 roles, Head, Vice- Head, Adult and Child. As one of the youngest in my family, I played the role child ( :D) with another family member.

As responsible adults and children, we needed to work, get educated, get vaccinated and... more work! Yeah, this activity was kind of cool. It looked like The Sims, only much more realistic. So we could work as beggar, prostitute, drug-dealer, street-singer, farmer (fancy eh? :)) ). It was fun, everyone was trying to do as many jobs as possible, in order to gain money and help each family. Another thing UNIQUE about this activity was that... you could get AIDS!! Wee~! Who'd have thought of that? You could get AIDS from being a prostitute, from being vaccinated for $6 in illegal hospital instead of paying $10 in legal one, or just by doing NOTHING :DD!

Okay, maybe not by doing completely nothing, but it happened to me though. So it was like this, I was about to sing as a street-child, the game master put some kind of hole in my identity card, and when I was about to start...

the horn was sounded, session 1 was over.

Me and my Friends were told that we needed to get back to our family. I was like, "I'll be back!!" (since this job worth as much as $20, while other jobs worth $4 ) as I was running towards my family's direction. Then in my family, our family head checked each identity card, to make sure everything was okay. He looked at mine for awhile then he turned his head up and said, "You've got AIDS". I was like, "What the eff?!", but since I was a shy kid back then I only said, "How come?". He then told me that the hole on this part of my identity card meant that I got AIDS. Then I remembered... STREET-SINGER- JOB. The game master there put a hole on my card! As soon as session 2 started, I ran back to the place I left before and the game master said, "No can do. You got AIDS. I can't let you work", I exclaimed with disbelief, "But I got this from the job you gave... which I haven't even done!!". I pleaded, and pleaded, and... *sigh* pleaded so that he would let me work. But he said he couldn't, since it was the rules. I was shocked. I felt betrayed. I was fooled. Every time people asked me, "AIDS? What did you do?". I smiled and replied, "Nothing". Then people would be looking at me, confused. I had no intention in explaining how was doing nothing could make you infected with AIDS. It was just simply too... Stupid.

Then as the game went on, more and more people got AIDS (Welcome to my world brothers and sisters). This activity also meant to tell us that AIDS spread quickly, and what's cruel that Game Masters usually didn't want to hire victims of AIDS... even though it wasn't their fault.

I also know that the life of children who inherit AIDS from their parents are horrible. People who aren't educated about how the virus spreads treat them as if they aren't humans. If only people know that AIDS wouldn't spread by touching, hand-shakes... Their life would be much easier.

Oh yeah, I got Malaria as well :D Wo hoo, thanks God that it was just a game, if it was real, I'd be dead by now. Imagine, infected by two deadly viruses just in hours.

End of 'A Day in The Life'